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first love.
is not the boy/girl you say you liked in kindergarden
or your first boy/girlfriend
first love is the one you feel different
something about him that made you..
out of breath.
that made your mind over-reacted.
well at least that's my definition.
people always say time will heals the wound.
people always say you'll move on with time.
well in my case.
they're DEAD wrong!
there are other guys out there.
even better ones i think.
YES. Better.
but why don't i feel the same?
for two & a half years
i kept coming back to him.
it's been 2 & 1/2 years!
and he's already long gone.
i know that.
i accepted that.
and today i saw the hard proof.
they're great for each other.
and i'm happy for them
i don't want to be the one who ruin that.
but how can i say i'm okay when truthfully.. i'm not.
when i'm not thinking of him.
i'm finepix.
when something that reminds me of him happens.
it saddens me.
some time ago i ran across a phrase that said,
"the thing that you loved the most is the thing that's bad for you
and the thing that you hated the most is the thing that's good for you"
it's indeed true.
a number of events like that had happened to me.
the point is,
you and only you knows the truth.
what your heart is telling you.
a memory of that person you loved
is already a part of you.
will always be a part of you.
no matter how much you hated it
you loved it to stay.
so no matter how much you try to move on
first love always stays.
first love.
is not the boy/girl you say you liked in kindergarden
or your first boy/girlfriend
first love is the one you feel different
something about him that made you..
out of breath.
that made your mind over-reacted.
well at least that's my definition.
people always say time will heals the wound.
people always say you'll move on with time.
well in my case.
they're DEAD wrong!
there are other guys out there.
even better ones i think.
YES. Better.
but why don't i feel the same?
for two & a half years
i kept coming back to him.
it's been 2 & 1/2 years!
and he's already long gone.
i know that.
i accepted that.
and today i saw the hard proof.
they're great for each other.
and i'm happy for them
i don't want to be the one who ruin that.
but how can i say i'm okay when truthfully.. i'm not.
when i'm not thinking of him.
i'm finepix.
when something that reminds me of him happens.
it saddens me.
some time ago i ran across a phrase that said,
"the thing that you loved the most is the thing that's bad for you
and the thing that you hated the most is the thing that's good for you"
it's indeed true.
a number of events like that had happened to me.
the point is,
you and only you knows the truth.
what your heart is telling you.
a memory of that person you loved
is already a part of you.
will always be a part of you.
no matter how much you hated it
you loved it to stay.
so no matter how much you try to move on
first love always stays.
